My Life is My Own

A typical message from many conversations that I come across thru the year that I wanted to share. This is after all the holiday season, Right? And for me being the good little Jew, "Hannakah"

Even though I have had many hats(business ventures) worn. Even though I have written and still writing scripts sold two and possibly a third happening.as I speak.

Even though I have been hired in the entertainment industry as intern and become office manager to a studio, a personal assistant to major director and a bartender becomes a manager to a multimillion A list staffing company in Hollywood.

Even though I started as a volunteer in numerous organizations to become the CEO and creative director for them. Even though I have managed to be hair and make up stylist to major models and singers in the early years.

That typical message is "Why don't you have a boyfriend?".

All of the accomplishments all of a sudden have no meaning because I have no one to share them with. Really!

Does anyone still ask that?

While they are dating and breaking up and dating and breaking up and divorcing and divorcing again and again. Because I have no boyfriend I am a failure!

Really?

While they are going thru all that I busy myself that with dreaming of winning the Oscar, Golden Globe and SAG awards.

Of dreaming of turning a moment in my head that will not leave me till I get it onto paper and it become a moment that I can share on film and show people what I see.

Whether my thoughts are inspiring or moving enough to make a difference in someone else life. Whether all or none of these things come to pass.

What matters is that I own them. I own all of them!

So in conclusion as to whether I matter or what I do matters, I like a good enlightenment student, I get out of my journal.

I write out out what is going on with me, with my friends, with the people I love and truthfully I love a lot of them.

While I write about them and I come up with the solutions, with my solutions, I come across with the message "My Life is Mine". My Life is My Own".

So as I realize this statement as my inner truth, I start jumping around the room and quoting Queen Latifah lines from Beauty Shop and singing "I have got a new attitude".

Sometimes when I get deliriously happy I channel in your face street black women". It makes me laugh, but remember this is Mine!!

"My Life is Mine".

It takes real bravery and courage to live your life for yourself. It takes strength to be you, yourself, that person very few people get to see. If any!!!

When I take myself forward and be me, I get the "That is Selfish". "Do you have a family?" "Are you Married". And wait for it!!! "Do you have a Boyfriend?".

As if all the other things I have done, acheived and am in process of doing all of a sudden is not enough. All of a sudden all of that is not good enough or I am not worthy because I do not have a boyfriend.

My point with all of this baggage, with all of this life, with all of this is my life, with all of this. It comes down to this. "My Life is My Own".

If it becomes less than I am used to, then I fix it.

If I need love from someone I get it.

If I need anything I get it.

If after all that you can still say as you look in that mirror and say "I love You". "I got You".

And at the end of the day if I am happy then that is good enough. "My Life is Mine"

Lets leave with a tried but true song