"Better Than This"

"To Live Long and to go mad is better than dying without purpose'.

What better way to grab you from what you are doing and hit you with a profound statement!!

Lets jump into it with music....

When the lights in my street go out and All the people lie sleeping under clouds and They're dreaming of better than this Then my brother calls me and he's sayin' Oh, I can hear the angels praying That we can do better than this

What better way to celebrate a five year writing assignment body of work "Live LIve Live".

There are the times in your life that set apart everything else. The moments that stick in your memories that become the "remember whens". That moment a light went off in your head that could make or break the next thing. But we have them, we live them, we do them because it is just living a life. For myself no different with the exceptions of all the energies around me and the power of the universe as the driver, maybe mine is more or less than your own. This is not a lesson in better than you, better than me. The story for this blog is to share what has been a great journey of my own self awareness.

A sharing of my experiences of living the life I created. Emphasis on "created". All of the moments or things I have done or thought of doing started with a simple thought. There has to be something "better than this". And you know what there is....

As I grew and got more comfortable in my own skin, the more and more the world would open and show me incredible things and ideas that were just waiting in the wings for me. All I had to do was think of it , embrace it and the lights just kept coming. I want to pause here for a moment to be real here and state that all the great things that have come and will come to me are all with disclaimers. They are not all joys and bright lights, there are definitely the sad and dark times. Life I have discovered over and over again is about the pendulum of balance. What happens on one end swings back to the other side with equal motions that it ends up sharing both sides so we get a better reality and in some cases life lessons. "Oh, those life lessons". You know the ones that suck the air out of the room and hit you in the stomach so hard that you could toss your cookies right here, right now lessons. Well I did toss and I have tossed. The lesson that would save me every time is the lesson of how I rise up from it. Of how I use it to make the next moment come back in to the light. Remember one side a gut punch, then swing the other side a brilliant moment.

As for me I have tried to have more of the brilliant moments than the dark. And in my own head I have succeeded at least for myself. But the story here is not all bright lights and stars as there is the gut punch of losing my Mom, of having over 300 people that I knew in my early years from closest of friends to a mere aquaintance pass from the Aids epidemic, of finding out my Mom was victim of the Holocaust and like myself victim of hate and mental abuse from a father that knew nothing about love and acceptance that he would toss me out on the street like a piece of trash. I did not intend to take you down such a grey path but I needed to make a point here. we are coming out of a world epidemic right now.

Life is about choice.

I chose to write a blog about living your best life.

A blog about dreaming large and then even larger. A blog about survival and living your life as who you are, I mean really are as a person. A blog about inspiration and motivation.

A blog about taking care of others as well as you take care of yourself.

A blog that would in my own hope of hopes lift your heart in some way and just simply smile. A blog that wherever you are in life it can be a happy at this moment moment.

My blog is not about the "One that got Away"

Five years ago I had toyed with the idea of just writing memoirs and or maybe a book of myself. I became a writer because I want to be a director. A very talented and Academy Award winning director ended up in front of me at a Film Production Studio that I managed and asked me

"What is in this for you".

"Why are you here".

"What makes Rand Rand"?

It was one of those oh shit moments as I tried to act like I got this as I took a deep breath. From my own feeling and in my head "you have talked this out in your head over and over".

I looked him straight in the eyes and just blurted out. "I want to be a film director".

"I want to show people the beauty I see everywhere".

"I want people to feel just a little stronger about who they are as people".

I know huge statements but they are real statements of how I feel.

Without a pause the talented director said. "Then you have to write"

I had been given permission from someone I admired to now become a writer. He went on with a complete reasoning of if I want to direct talent, then I need to know how to set the scene to move the film forward. What better way to do that than if you write the scene and dialogue?

This was one of those joyous times as I with my new reason to live went bouncing over to UCLA and enrolled in all the film writing courses I could legally take.

Well!

Just a few lifetimes later I am gleefully still writing scripts, 64 of them actually, sold a couple and took a detour to help my Mom as she was aging, then this blog because there are so many glamorous and less than seedy moments in my life would be the quickest way to get you to know me.

I have a lot to say. I can not hold back when the light feels me it pours out on the pages.

Sometimes my points can be less than happy but there are many many not so sad times as well.

What's important at least for me is that I have my own platform.

I try to tell everyone what has worked for me and not so there is balance. There needs to be positives because no one wants to hear someone spouting off this and that like they are wearing a wet diaper that is in desperate need of changing.

There is no other words except 'It Stinks"

When I decided to write my blog, it was in the wake of losing job and trying to move myself forward on so many of my goals. I would like to think it was my own inspiration as it took me less than a month to land an amazing job as I launched my first post one week after I started.

I have witnesses....

This blog does not have all the answers. There are not enough hours for me to write them. I am still a child of the universe, but I can assure you I am a present student. I have a front row seat on so many levels as I have spent a lifetime of surrounding myself with amazing people from all walks of life.

All supportive. All incredibly talented, brilliant beautiful people.

Remember we create the world we really want to live in. I want mine to be full of joy, love, beauty, kindness and compassion.

And most of all it needs to glamorous and if it is not I can design it where it needs to be.

All of my creatives have been taught. Music, art, design, fashion, film, writing, management all from educating myself and the most important lessons of survival, spirit, and a deep feeling soul and most of all a sweetheart from Mom. You can get out of life what you put in it. Balance remember!

If you want change then you have to change. Nothing is going to be different unless you do something differently.

You know one of my survival skills self imposed is that I spring clean my world, the people in it, the situations. etc. Just like Peter Pan, (Yes I have the I will not grow up syndrome). but that's another post or three.

It's simple the things that had its moments in my life that give back like I gave to them, I keep. The other ones get tossed and they are sent to someone else that wants them. Hopefully they get a better time there than what they offered me.

People, things, goals etc.... I have found many many times that there has to have these things invested, time and just being present.

If they don't care about me why beat myself up,

So I wanted to write about a life better than this. Because my life is better than this.

I want my life and my world to always be better than this. My mom used to always say "I want things to be better for you than they have been for me". So guess what? It most definitely has been better in so many ways. Not because I was given anything or a person is in my life.

It's because I found the tools to make things happen for me.

I found strength in my beliefs.

Strength in not ever giving up.

You can too.

It's not about mistakes.

It's about lessons.

All choices.

Everyone.

All of us can choose life as long as we can live it.

People come and go in our life. Try and make as many good times as the not so good times with them all. We all grow apart because we always grow. The ones around us are at the same pace or faster or slower. There are no rules. With people I try to be generous not with just gifts but my heart. Those you can't return. You cant look for thank yous only the joys of giving.

There are no guarantees.

No scripts.

No instructions.

If you don't know how then ask, There will thousands of answers but only one reality. You.

So my next blog post will be "Better than this".

This seems to work when I have done it in the past. So!!

Take a deep breath. Let out the sadness and inhale the gladness. Congrats. Your life just got a little better.

I am happy with that.

Thanks for reading, rolling your eyes, laughing, guttural noises and the in between as you have read the last five years of my world. Guess what. There is more.

See you on the flip side. I am thankful beyond anything to have the readers and the people that have taken the time to see me. I can assure you will no go blind. LOL

Luv to everyone. This is Rand Angel. Live Live Live

So touch me now

"It must have been Love"...... Live .......Live.......Live